For the Love of My Netbook

Whenever Timmy falls into a well, my netbook comes to fetch me…well, no. Not really. But sometimes I feel like my Acer Aspire One has saved from from a dreadful fate.

For example, if I’m stuck in an airport, and it turns out my flight’s been delayed for two hours. In some airports, there’s a wireless network, so I can use the netbook to log in and send a cry into the wilderness of the internet. Or I might be able to use that two hours–which might stretch into three or four–to get some writing done. And if all else fails, I can surf the internet.

My netbook weighs considerably less than my elderly laptop, and is smaller to boot. If I’ve been carrying it all day, I don’t feel as if I have a knapsack full of iron bars on my back. It’s not such a burden when I’m sprinting across an airport to make my connection. I can carry it even if I’m not sure I’ll need it. Sometimes, this results in me getting an extra couple of pages written on my lunch hour.

Besides all that, I think it’s cute. It’s little and cute. It makes me happy.

And anything that makes me eager to do a little writing can’t help but be a good thing.

This is one like mine:

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Memorial Day, Wilfrid Wilson Gibson, "A Lament"


A Lament

We who are left, how shall we look again
Happily on the sun or feel the rain
Without remembering how they who went
Ungrudgingly and spent
Their lives for us loved, too, the sun and rain?

A bird among the rain-wet lilac sings–
But we, how shall we turn to little things
And listen to the birds and winds and streams
Made holy by their dreams,
Nor feel the heart-break in the heart of things?

–Wilfred Wilson Gibson, 1918

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Siegfried Sassoon, "Base Details"

Base Details

If I were fierce, and bald, and short of breath,
I’d live with scarlet Majors at the Base,
And speed glum heroes up the line to death.
You’d see me with my puffy petulant face,
Guzzling and gulping in the best hotel,
Reading the Roll of Honour. ‘Poor young chap,’
I’d say–‘I used to know his father well;
Yes, we’ve lost heavily in this last scrap.’
And when the war is done and youth stone dead,
I’d toddle safely home and die–in bed.

–Siegfried Sassoon, Counter-Attack and Other Poems, 1918

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Siegfried Sassoon, "Banishment"

Banishment


I am banished from the patient men who fight
They smote my heart to pity, built my pride.
Shoulder to aching shoulder, side by side,
They trudged away from life’s broad wealds of light.
Their wrongs were mine; and ever in my sight
They went arrayed in honour. But they died,—
Not one by one: and mutinous I cried
To those who sent them out into the night.

The darkness tells how vainly I have striven
To free them from the pit where they must dwell
In outcast gloom convulsed and jagged and riven
By grappling guns. Love drove me to rebel.
Love drives me back to grope with them through hell;
And in their tortured eyes I stand forgiven.

–Siegfried Sassoon, Counter-Attack and Other Poems, 1918

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A WisCon 2006 memory – the fan letter

I leave for WisCon in a couple of days, and I wanted to revisit something I wrote while at WisCon 2006. To understand this, there are a few things I should tell my readers who aren’t familiar with science fiction.

James Tiptree, Jr., whose real name was Alice Sheldon, was one of the best science fiction writers in the history of the genre; she died by suicide in 1987. Because her gender wasn’t known until long after she’d become well-known, and because she addressed gender issues in her fiction, the Tiptree Award is named for her.

Carol Emshwiller is one of the most interesting writers in the sf genre. She’s now in her eighties. The collection of her stories to which I refer was published in 1974. Samuel R. Delany is another top writer and scholar in the field.

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Friends of mine came to WisCon this year for the first time, and decided they wanted to contribute something handmade to the Tiptree Auction. Once their item was out on display in the art room, they brought me by to see it. While I was there I looked at the other things.

Towards the end of the table, I found a manila folder, whose tag said something like “fan letter.” I opened it.

My heart stopped, or my breathing, or something. I found myself reading it aloud, slowly. It was beautifully written, a gushing fan letter full of complex clauses and humor and self-deprecation and admiration for Carol Emshwiller’s collection Joy in Our Cause. The letter was dated, if I remember right, 24 May 75. It had been written by James Tiptree, Jr., or “Tip.” Her signature was at the bottom, her perfectly ordinary home address embossed on the top corner. She had gotten Carol’s address from the SFWA directory, she said. Carol would laugh, she said, seeing how she rationed the book out. Carol didn’t have to feel obligated to reply, she could send the letter to her circular file if she wanted. There was a small stain from coffee, perhaps, and a creased corner. I touched it. It struck me more forcefully, physically, than the first time I touched a genuine archaeological artifact.

Later, I dragged several people into the room to see it, without telling them first why. Each time it was like it was new again. That such a thing could be in the world!

Carol never wrote back. She was too overwhelmed, too shy. I went up to her later in the Green Room and thanked her for donating the letter, thanked her for allowing me and the rest of us to see it. First, she said, “Wasn’t it beautifully written?” She said she couldn’t possibly have written anything as lovely in reply. After she read it, she told me, she forgot about the letter. I suggested maybe she’d just been thinking about it in the back of her mind. She said, “No, it was if it had never happened.” I said, “Maybe it was scary.” She said, after a moment’s thought, “Yes, maybe that was it.” She put the letter away, not finding it again until a couple of years ago, “And it was like a new thing.”

Now, Carol said, she would have replied, to thank Alice Sheldon for the lovely letter (or, probably, thanked Tip).

The real end of the conversation, though, was when Chip Delany, across the table, said that he had once gotten a letter from Tip, and it was now lost.

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WisCon 2009

Today, I’m on my way to Madison, Wisconsin for WisCon. I attend WisCon almost every year, and wanted to attend long before I had the financial means to do so. For many years, it was the only feminist science fiction convention, and is still the largest.

For me, WisCon is like a giant party, one of those good parties where you run into someone you know every few feet, and have to make appointments ahead of time so you can make sure to see all your friends. As most of the conventions I attend are in the northeast of the United States, traveling to the midwest for WisCon means I get to see friends from that area, as well as friends from farther away, for example California and England. Most of them, I see only once a year, at WisCon.

The convention officially begins on Friday, but like many WisCon regulars, I arrive on Thursday to hang out in the lobby of the Concourse hotel and greet friends as they arrive. It’s a chance to have a leisurely dinner in one of the many nearby restaurants, and hear that year’s guests of honor read at the local feminist bookstore, A Room of One’s Own.

I am on deadline at the moment, and am participating less in the convention programming this year than I usually do: only two panels, neither of which I’m moderating. I decided not to participate in a reading, either. But this year is different for another reason. This is the very first time I will be attending as the author of a published novel.

Last year, I had a single cover flat for The Duchess, Her Maid, The Groom and Their Lover, which I brandished and forced everyone to admire. This year, I have an actual published book. I’m bringing a few copies to sell at the Broad Universe table, and will have one on hand for people to look at if they’re curious. Many of my friends who’ll be attending have already read it, but I haven’t seen them in person since last year, so this will be my first chance to discuss it with them in person. So exciting!

It feels like I’m going to show off my book at a family reunion.

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History of WisCon

I’ll be leaving for WisCon tomorrow, and after checking something on their website, I found this excellent page:

History of WisCon.

It contains a list of the past conventions and their guests of honor. For some, the guest of honor speeches are available as PDF downloads.

I highly recommend reading some of the speeches:

Carol Emshwiller.

Nalo Hopkinson.

Ursula K. LeGuin.

I hope some more of the recent speeches make it online soon.

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My WisCon 2009 Schedule

These are the panels in which I’ll be participating at WisCon this weekend.

Gadgets: Then, Now and When
Sat 1:00 – 2:15PM
Conference 4

Moderator: Michelle Murrain; John Helfers, Elise Anna Matthesen, Victoria Janssen, Allison Morris.

Cyberpunk and steampunk are alluring gadget–heavy genres: what roles do gadgets and their inventors play in characterization and world–building? What gadgets exist that we never dreamt we’d see, and which do we think we may see within our lifetimes? What are the fictional gadgets we wish really existed? Which real gadgets can’t we live without, and which do we take for granted?

Witches and Wizards: Gender and Power in Portrayals of Magic
Sat 10:30 – 11:45PM
Caucus

Moderator: Sarah G. Micklem; Gerri Balter, Melodie Bolt, Beverly Friend, Victoria Janssen.

Are witches female and wizards male? Feminism has created a new norm where Hermione gets to go to wizard school too, but let’s take a closer look. Are there still implicit assumptions about the gender of magic in many fantasies?

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The Obligatory Writing-Music Post

Writers often have a close relationship with music. Some write in silence, but those who write while music is playing are often very opinionated on what sort of music they choose, even to constructing playlists for particular novels.

I’m a musician myself, both an instrumentalist and a choral singer, but the way I use music when writing is very different from how I approach it as a musician.

When I listen to music while writing, often it’s merely to mask other noises, whether outside my head or inside it. Frequently, I write in a coffee shop which sometimes plays music that I find distracting, plus there are sometimes loud conversations going on. In that case, I have a special playlist to use. Its title is “Loud.” Everything on it is loud enough to drown out other noises (I have good headphones). The German band Rammstein is a big part of that playlist, as are Rob Zombie and Disturbed and Godsmack and Depeche Mode and Metallica.

When I don’t need the masking effect, I tend to favor music that enhances my concentration, which for me is usually something featuring long melodic lines or a steady underlying pulse. If volume isn’t an issue–for instance if I’m in a quiet place but just having trouble focusing–I usually go for vocal music, mostly early polyphonic counterpoint. (For example, the Renaissance composer Giovanni Pierluigi da Palestrina, or the medieval composer Guillaume de Machaut.) If I already know the piece well, I can “turn off” my musician brain and let the music play along at a subconscious level. I’m not sure exactly how this works to help me write, but it does. I also use electronica and trip-hop for this purpose (for example, Tricky–his albums are staple listening for me while writing).

Finally, there’s the music that doesn’t serve quite the same purpose for me as the counterpoint or trip-hop, but is close to it in effect, with its usually minor key and driving beats. I use Goth bands such as Sisters of Mercy, This Mortal Coil, London After Midnight, Joy Division, and Inkubus Sukkubus on my standard writing playlist.

And when I don’t know what I want, I revert to Evanescence on repeat. I’ve used their albums as writing music for long enough that the words sink into the music and don’t distract me; again, it’s a band whose music is usually minor key (my favorite, if you haven’t already guessed) and features long melodic lines.

How about you?

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Siegfried Sassoon, "Autumn"

Autumn

October’s bellowing anger breaks and cleaves
The bronzed battalions of the stricken wood
In whose lament I hear a voice that grieves
For battle’s fruitless harvest, and the feud
Of outraged men. Their lives are like the leaves
Scattered in flocks of ruin, tossed and blown
Along the westering furnace flaring red.
O martyred youth and manhood overthrown,
The burden of your wrongs is on my head.

–Siegfried Sassoon, Counter-Attack and Other Poems, 1918

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